I remember talking with a client who struggled connecting with others. I also have had issues with this earlier in life. It is a feeling of being insecure and worrying about being judged.
The lesson is that opening yourself up to connection takes courage. Many have been hurt before and feel scared that it will happen again. If we stay alone we are risking our mental and physical health.
You may have had a problem with a friend or family member. It is never too late to talk and explain your emotions. The best possibility is to let go and begin again. You may connect with new friends who are there for the right reasons.
I hope you know that you are special, unique and gifted. If you feel alone please understand it does not have to be this way forever. You may grow stronger and begin to let light and love in. I wish you a day of healing and peace.